NURISH HARDEFTY

Seconds of life give way and bridge   Empty, dewy, dark   The tree branches move roughly   I walk step by step without a vehicle crossing the winding road   Love is five letters that can give heaven or vice versa like disaster   I walk a little moaning in pain   This is how it feels when love becomes disappointed   He came and asked,   Build and give hope   I'm lulled in happiness that is limited to words   then hurt and thrown away   I only saw wounds along this way  Ahhh, apparently   It's all just words   Have the hopes that he said he has proven to be true?   No, only formed into empty hopes and mere delusion   Along the way I only see wounds   There's no love   Of course. ~Nurish Hardefty

Is there anything more mysterious than a fragile girl who is not fragile?   Fragile girl standing on top of a building looking up at the city sky   Talking with the wind that is wiping the remaining tears on her face   Having fun with thousands of city lights competing to enliven the night sky   Is there anything more shocking than a fragile girl who is not fragile?   Whose heart is stained with blood and pus   Whose life seems like a dead city without a soul   She's standing on top of that building   Just to joke with the harsh reality that crushes her   Her teary eyes stare blankly at the color of the city sky   Her fragile smile seduces the universe   She's fine keeping wounds   Yes, she's trying to look fine behind her thousands of wounds ~Nurish Hardefty  Photo credit: Elizabeth Gadd

I was born from the light again will be the light    A dim light that then shines brightly when it meets a dark dot in a corner    There you are standing  There I silently watched    Slowly you walk closer     On this journey    I walk through thousands of lights    Shining bright light    Sparkles like diamonds    Fireflies    And the stars in the sky are wide    I also saw the colors of the rainbow on the walls of the cave that the warm sun could not reach    The gray color strikes suddenly and then grips    I fell in love for a moment at the beauty of the light and the colors of the rainbow    Then I was heartbroken for a moment when the color got rid of them    The sound of a thunderstorm echoes in the air    The universe and its selfishness destroy what I'm enjoying    I have no control over this and a ...

  Evening singing sounds sad in my room   The evening sun peeks shyly behind the window   I sit pensive   Wiping the flowing tears   I fell in love with a monster   A man with a hard heart   I am wrong again,   Is he not worthy of me or am I not worthy of him?   Evening singing sounds sad in my room   The sky begins to dim its color from pale white to gray   The sad song is heard hitting my heart even more   How do I endure it?   This love journey continues to drain energy   I love you   You love me too   But all that is just meaningless words   It's like I woke up from a beautiful dream then went back to sleep and had a bad dream   It's so bad and I don't want to dream any more about love life ~Nurish Hardefty 

My heart died then  No life  Then you come to offer a long-neglected beauty  Accepting you like a worry  But I still accept that beauty  Words of love that make me feel like I have the world again  Halfway through I realized it  I only accept words of love and empty promises that can't be proven anymore  I'm broken again  I accept you all that emptiness and falsehood again  The word love is only a series of sentences  There are no actions that show that you really love  I was down for a very long time  My heart is dead again  Cold like an empty, uninhabited space ~Nurish Hardefty 

Is God in our relationship?   Blessing two hearts that love each other but hurt each other?   There is fatigue There is a feeling of wanting to fight it out and show off   This is true love   This is the destiny behind everything that has been passed together   We smile with satisfaction   hug each other   We are able to pass the test of love from year to year   Look, the sky looks gloomy   Happy birds can't be seen   Hope slightly eroded by waves of anger What can I say?   Will this last love be lost again?   Beautiful and sturdy building, years of painstaking construction   Don't you want to build your true love like that building?   Now, I want to dance in the rain   Alone in the middle of the night without you   Done   I finished telling all about my inner voice ~Nurish Hardefty 

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I'm tired of being sick   I'm sick of love   Love sometimes gives me strength   Also weak and suffering   We agreed to build true love   But in the end you make love in a failed relationship   I fell like jumping from the top of a building   Blood in my tears   The knife in my heart   hurtful   I touch my heart when it hurts   I tried to hug you   You give up   Leave me alone You say it's my fault it's my fault  It's not my fault but ours, we're wrong. Ego dominates each heart.   Blood in my tears   I cry in silence   You don't care anymore   I beg you to stay and build love on the same bridge   You laugh because my stupidity is still trying to hold back this love   I fell like jumping from the top of a building  Blood in my tears   I cry in silence   You don't care anymore   You are my life   And now slowly you are reincarnated into an enemy Me cry in...

She wasn't sad, she wasn't happy either, she wasn't angry, she wasn't lonely, but she wasn't calm either. She just felt empty, and was still nursing her wound. Sometimes corious, why? Does she have no purpose in life anymore? She didn't want to live, but she didn't want to die either. She lost her identity, she was confused maybe. Her face was flat and cold.  Is she heartbroken?  ~Nurish Hardefty

If you are destined to be my soulmate for life, I would like to ask you something. If you know me long enough, understand me. If you know what's been hurting me all this time, understand me. Be you someone who heals my inner wounds, Be thou my soul cooler, Instead of becoming the same person as my past, One who adds to the wounds and pains, Please don't do that If the men in my past only liked to make promises they never kept, Then be you someone who is able to keep it If the man in my past preferred to flood me with sweet words that made me soar high into the world of dreams, Then be you who flooded me with real actions that took me flying happily in the real world Be someone I can really trust, Someone who will persist in his desire to have me for the rest of your life. I'm not perfect even far from perfect I have a lot of inner wounds that I've been carrying on my own all this time Maybe I look cold sometimes Or even very possessive ...

I love being independent, I love to stay alone, Here call my home, My peaceful, I tried to fall in love with the art of pain, The art of single,  The art of losing, I found my self there, I surrendered my suffer to universe, The time cure me, The time guide me, Here call my home, Peacefulness ~Nurish Hardefty

The pain is too heavy I want to try to continue rowing the boat in the middle of the ocean, spread the sails and pull over for a moment to land. Seeing the clouds churning deep black blue, the water is getting bluer, the bright white is getting fainter. Scary. A camera captures this heavy wound, becomes a memory. Birds are flying singing or they are cursing in annoyance, storms and rain will hit. The boisterous combination of the sound of the moaning of sea water, the chatter of lightning, the singing of birds in the air and the hiss of the wind that wants to run. This pain is too heavy, let me just drown in the middle of the ocean, then I dive into it. Who cares about how deep the pain is? Only the storm kept screaming and weighing me down with pain. The waves and ebbs and flows of the water say hold on and cross me or embrace my body, Sink with me? Who cares about the storm that churned up there? In my heart? Torn my soul and mind. Oh who cares? ~Nurish Hardeft...

She was born like a flower       Beautiful when it blooms with a distinctive fragrance on the face       All eyes on her       Interested and want to have it       Thousands of hands approaching       Just poke       Just looking       And not infrequently those who are desperate to pick it       She is beautiful and smells good       Very valuable to have She's like a flowers        Lavender       Rose       Lily       The sun and wind fall in love with them       Then the rain doesn't want to lose       He drops water as a sacrifice for his love.       Flowers must grow       Beautiful and fragrant       A man's hand is approaching       pluck it       Take it home   ...

   If today is my last day    I just want to sit in the garden where I used to enjoy the breeze on the tree branches    Seeing the water on the edge of the dam accompanied by the twinkling lights of a towering building    If this is my last day    I want to play very smooth sad music or just listen to it    Just to describe my deepest feelings    If this is my last day    I want to tell the world about something    I have been patient and strong enough to get through my worst very difficult days     If this is my last day    I want to tell the world about someone    Someone who will be the last love of my life, it's you    The person who gives me happiness like a home for me to rest is you    The one who smashed me to pieces in a useless bend even then you     The last of the ones that have ended    Endless sadness ...